Here we go again. I have succumbed a lot recently to my sugar addiction. It was too easy, almost excusable as it was Easter. Encouraged even as I received a huge and gorgeous nutty chocolate egg and I enjoyed it all!
I enjoyed snack suppers, shared in front of films with my family plus lots of chocolate, flapjacks and almond croissants. I have been very busy at work which is always a good excuse for not eating properly. I had a quick visit to Belfast, Northern Ireland this week, just for the day. I only saw the inside of the airport
Today I decided to start again. To start quitting sugar again. I have eaten so much recently and the more sugar I eat, the more I want to eat. For me, every time I give in to the addiction to sugar and eat some, it feels like a snowball that gathers momentum and size as it goes. The urge to eat it gets stronger and stronger. Many people have their outlets for when times are demanding. I don’t smoke or take drugs or even drink excessively. I eat sugar. So I need to find something that will make me feel as sated as eating sugar does.
I have tried various different hobbies, all of which I enjoy but get frustrated as I don’t have enough time to devote to them. I wanted something to occupy me so I didn’t reach for snacks. I tinker about with drawing and painting, both of which I enjoy but I don’t feel like doing either of those in the evening when I am tired. I tried knitting which I like as it is relaxing and it is something I can do in the evening. I finally completed a blanket I made for Lara this week.
It is a patchwork blanket made in 2 colours and using 2 stitches; blanket and moss stitch. It is full of mistakes but she was appropriately pleased with it and I was happy to knit it for her. Now Harvey wants one.
I can not knit or paint or draw in the afternoons though which is another time I tend to over eat. Afternoons are also the time I tend to feel stressed at work so I need a way to be relieved of stress that does not involve eating sugar. All suggestions are welcome.
So I am going back to the quitting sugar books and beginning again. I am following Sarah Wilson’s plan as it is quite gentle and this time I will approach it slowly. I will take her advice to start with some simple and easy changes.
For week 1 I need to cut back on sugar and cut back on refined carbohydrates such as cakes, doughnuts and “bready things”. I can continue with fruit this week so I will.
I was in Horsmonden first thing seeing a very good Physiotherapist. I always stop at this excellent little village shop which I highly recommend if you ever pass through. It has an excellent range of products and a good deli counter. I picked up some veggies and Scotch eggs which Harvey enjoys and they are an easy snack for him to have.
Shame it was such an overcast day. I made myself a cheese omelette with tomatoes for breakfast. I have quit sugar, not fat. I was working from home today. It was such a busy day at work I just had time to grab a coffee and a bowl of nuts for lunch. Activated nuts and seeds which I munched on while I attended back to back meetings.
I took an apple and a chunk of Cheddar to eat in the car when I went to collect Harvey . I then had a very scary drive with a knocking sound that became louder until my wheel fell off! Luckily I was completely unscathed, although I was very shaken. It was frightening as I couldn’t control the car and I was next to quite a steep ditch.
Two very nice men from the AA came along very quickly. One took me home and the other dropped my car at the garage. So I am car less but alive.
Back at home I was tempted to eat something sugary which is my standard response to stress. So I did eat something sugary but with at least some health benefits – I ate grapes with another chunk of cheese. A very small chunk of cheese and that did me.
So, I have to lose all the weight I have put on recently and all the weight I want to lose. But this time I am doing it slowly and hopefully successfully.