After dropping Lara back at her flat yesterday we were faced with a long drive home. I hate saying good-bye.
We stopped off to grab a late lunch at a service station. The boys wanted KFC (yuck) and I opted for some California Rolls and a bottle of water.
We did a Costco shop as we are having a party for our neighbours tomorrow and I wanted some food and drink so we stocked up. By the time I got home I was sad about not seeing Lara for ages again. Plus I was tired so I ate some garbage which did not make me feel better – au contraire!
I had a large bowl of porridge for breakfast, with chia seeds, banana and blueberries. That set me up nicely for the day ahead.
I had to go to Ramsgate to clear up after our latest visitors. It was a very grey and overcast day there today. A bit like my mood. I feel in the doldrums today and having to clear up after other people was not helping.
I had taken a healthy salad of tomatoes, red pepper, cucumber and carrots, with a dressing of olive oil, white wine vinegar and lemon juice.
It was supposed to have avocado with it but when I cut the avocado open it had gone rotten so it was a very plain lunch. I enjoyed the salad but it was not enough.
So I went to the shops and bought a cheese and celery sandwich to go with it.
For some reason, I binged on chocolatey things this afternoon. I started in Ramsgate with some chocolate biscuits the visitors had left and kept going at home with some chocolate mini eggs. Actually, quite a lot of mini eggs.
I had supper too; salmon, tender stem broccoli and new potatoes. So that was healthy at least and tasty.
I have not had a binge like that for ages and I am really cross with myself for it. I had been doing so well recently but I think I still have to be very careful with any sweet and sugary food. I allowed myself to relax my diet during our trip away this week and that seems to bring all my bad habits rushing back. I also need to prepare better for those times when I know I am going to feel low about things and make sure I have healthy food and snacks to eat and something fun to do to cheer myself up.
The good news is that I am feeling excited about my drinks party tomorrow and am planning to eat healthily all day. My Doldrums are lifting.